My 2015 in review: The year of walking on new ground

I loved this year. I loved its challenges and heartaches, the frustrations and breakthroughs, the epiphanies and opportunities. I found a way to breathe and to appreciate the moments, even while in them, as being valuable experience of life and all its complexity. I bowed to the lessons, I flowed with my feelings, I danced, laughed, and told stories I’d never shared before.

I had new adventures, played new roles, tapped into new resources. I don’t think I’ve had a year before where everything felt so new, at the same time I was meeting these experiences with more and more of myself. I reached into the past for long forgotten gifts. I reached out to new teachers if I needed help or new skills. If I stumbled, those always seemed like good moments to ground myself better, and heal or realign within before carrying on.

I’m ending 2015 with the awareness that I’m not where I thought a year ago that I’d be. I’m much happier with this state of things, actually, and love that I could be surprised like this.

A year ago:

• I was frustrated with the divorce proceedings and how they were dragging more than had been promised
• I thought I’d be facilitating more spiritual/creative workshops, which I’m not doing now
• I thought I’d have a book out, but  the book (s) I have completed are nothing I had imagined
• I thought I’d conquer the local fairs and markets with my art & crafts, which I have, after which I lost all interest in selling in the old ways
• Thought I was starting to understand my purpose, which has manifested new avenues and new friendships that surprise me
• Thought I was in love, but still only knew it in a conditional and unbalanced way
• Was opening to learn of new ways to make money and expand my Internet know-how
• Still hated cameras and being caught looking ugly (Actually, this persists, but is being managed.)

In 2015:

• I lucked out with a fantastic professional photographer and got braver, getting myself on TV as an artist, recording videos (both behind and in front of camera), and learning how to produce and jazz up HD videos
• Studied internet marketing and having  a more planned approach to online business (even if one project’s stalled for now). I’m now starting to use these skills for newer and more aligned-with-me projects
• Was involved twice (for the first time) with the local bi-annual holistic festival, the second time to sell my own work there at a group booth. The preparation for my own merchandise and materials took 3 months. On the way to the fair on the first day, I was checking off my lists of tasks and  to-bring items written 3 months ago. That amount of planning paid off.
• Had ridiculously long, insightful and beautiful lucid dream experiences; including how to cross realms with others, ridding myself of entities, having loving conversations, and carrying out energetic cleansing of haunted, physical sites. My eyes opened to what was possible from myself and the helpers around me.
• Met more healers and artists and co-creators who inspire me and opened my view of the possibilities.
• Became braver in sharing all that I do and can offer, including the woo stuff.
• Started learning more on how to stand up for myself with less projection, less baggage, and more honesty and integrity around how/what I am willing to  co-create.
• Spoke up more, rolling with the consequences, good or bad.
• Recovering from the “bad” consequences made me less shy and more willing to put out messages and stories that I really loved and believed in–because I had survived.
• Learned countless new ways of healing (including with science and new technology) and of how to work within the healing profession still aligned with my deepest beliefs on holistic healing
• Got divorced and liked it.
• Faced fears, whether it was cameras, legal paperwork, business/money skills, charging more.
• Shared more stories, read beautiful books, discovered more music to love
• Traveled to new places
• Witnessed my reality and my self grow and expand–and the help I can draw upon become more vast, too. It has been immensely exciting, scary, and humbling to glimpse some of what is possible in my future, if I step up.
• Learned from my daughter how to be a kinder and more patient person.
• Met a lot of brilliant people with aligned intentions and visions.

I’m sure some lessons will continue.

I’m sure I may need to revisit some, and may have new ones thrown my way next year, which I welcome.

I’ve learned to see that being new territory, no matter how difficult, is a good sign; there will be treasure to glean from the experience, to bring into the next.

Every challenge brings a gift.

We lose nothing except our illusions.

However your 2015 has been, I wish you a 2016 filled with amazement, light, and love.