This one’s hitting me hard, and I’m probably not alone. Some astronomical events may become noteworthy in your own personal life not on the day itself (it’s already June 21st here in the East), but in the 2-3 days before and after, and I’ve already seen meltdowns and triggers aplenty in the last two days. And, an important daily habit that I’d promised to keep up for a year I nearly slipped up on on Thursday because of said meltdown. In these few days already I’ve experienced crises of confidence in nearly all the aspects of my life–as if I needed them! And extra chores and responsibilities (and challenges) making me bark very ferociously at loved ones for taking away my quiet alone time–basically not leaving me or my moments of rest alone. Strangely, all of these are solar chakra issues, and it’s also the painting I’ve got on my work board at the moment. I also had not planned (at least consciously) to be working on this image over the Solstice. But I suppose it fits in the synchronistic, logical 20-20 hindsight way my sacred geometry series has been going. A peek:
Virgo Magic’s write-up on the solstice has me nodding to all its statements today, even though I’m not an astrologer; the planets both figuratively and literally fly over my head. But recent events have been presenting me plenty of opportunities to revisit old struggles and pains just under the surface. The meltdowns (funny how the word itself can be tied so neatly to the physical workings of our actual sun) were hardly welcomed when they came, but were probably a necessary clue to my still ongoing lessons, and a chance at feeling, then releasing hidden emotions–even if I had to do it in the presence of those who have a habit of reacting to such displays with “we gotta do stuff and fix things and have the ideal outcome immediately”, adding more needless urgency and hair-pulling stress. What I really needed and could still use was just a slow-down, realignment and release.
I am getting really, really tired of the old 3D methods of doing things the hard way–with the gritting of teeth, the “useful” love-less attitudes like “suck it up”, and the prizing of physical, manual busy-ness and being “productive” over inner introspection, alignment, working smart and using effective tools and right timing. I think we have been programmed to expect rewards only after dramatic struggles (it’s what stories are made of) instead of meditation, intuition, emotional healing and rest. It doesn’t mean becoming couch potatoes– it just means that our efforts should be happy, that we should honour our limits and learn to see struggles as possible clues that we aren’t working smart or in alignment.
Some lessons are ongoing processes. Some processes are processes. I’d love to be in a house free of dog ticks at the moment but short of fumigating the house (not an option I want), I’ve chosen the slow, manual cleaning/spraying and egg-cycle-breaking process and I have to accept it will be an ongoing thing. The long process is not appealing to me but as with everything else, it will happen one thing and one step at a time. Same with the dealing with a mum with dementia, a dad who often wants results and solutions now, and a kid who’s starting to have friends and friends’ parents I don’t always like. And I gotta allow myself to feel tired, annoyed, frustrated. It’s part of being human.
Funnily enough, I expect my solar plexus chakra issues to be OK once the painting is finished, and then maybe I’ll be dealing with throat chakra or sacral/creativity issues next. If I’m lucky!
More recommended links:
- 20 Things To Stop Letting People Do To You Yay boundaries!
- 12 Ideas For Instant Solar Plexus Chakra Relief… Today! Good list of solar chakra tips.
- Elizabeth Jones ~ Uranus In Aries: A Divine Wake-Up Call Other aspects of this solstice.