Spinning Wheels

What a nutty week and a half it’s been!

It felt like nothing was happening yet everything was happening at the same time; last week there was a major disruption for our usual habits around the house, when we received news that my grandfather was in critical condition. My father traveled to see him, and so in the meantime, familial duties at home were switched around (ie. all transferred to me) at the very same time I was trying to work but also attend a weekend workshop on healing and sacred geometry–which was nothing like what I expected, yet seemed completely right for me. The workshop took two full days, and every time I came home it just seemed the chores never ended–feeding the dog, placating the kid, taking care of the neglected house plants and dust bunnies, and so on. But life returns to normal this week (I hope), as much to everyone’s surprise, my grandfather scraped through, but we also think it is just a temporary reprieve.

I am extremely grateful for my guides and intuitive hits and the constant flow of helpful information and events around me. Even as the activity level ramped up and life got nuts sometimes, I was cradled in the knowing that all was taken care of, so much so that rushing home on both Saturday and Sunday night (in order to feed the dog and put the kid to bed), I found myself able “find” taxi cabs in an unfamiliar place where I was not seeing any at all. I’d get a picture in my head of where to stand, and when I went there (around a corner, or across the road), an available cab was stopped, or would stop there completely unexpectedly without my having to flag it. To have this happen as I was coming down a pedestrian bridge right next to a dark exit from an highway–it’s just not usual at all! It’s an amazingly empowering feeling to have complete faith in Spirit and to have that backed up by signs like this. (I am aware it would be nice if this happened for bigger things than taxi cabs, but we all have to start somewhere!)

All in all, despite/because of the busy-ness this weekend, it was a wonderful workshop with a great teacher and fellow students. It’s amazing to me that right before Saturday, I had been getting the strong message to “rest” and not start/work on anything major, despite my impatience with my work/career and constant questioning of what my next move should be, yet never having time enough for work or painting. After the workshop, I realised the gifts I’d received were ones that I will treasure and work with for life (not that I’m abandoning art). It just seems more and more that I signed on to tackle a large plate in this life, and I feel I was just handed a big part of it this weekend–not only the work, but all the help that I need to do it.

The more I learn, the bigger my view of life becomes, and my mind is quite awed and blown. We live in amazing times right now, and I am grateful for my fellow travelers–whether the car is moving or not. ;)