Coping with April 2014

We’re not even halfway through it, I know. And while I’d read that there would be massive changes and energies flying around this month, I never expected to be blindsided by them on Friday and Saturday. After all, it’s not as if I’m a n00b at this stuff: look at me! I’m so enlightened and awake and–WHOMP!!! Flat on my back, and unable to sleep on Saturday night/Sunday morning until 3am because of old emotional stuff returning. And yet, and yet…

I learn so much during sleep, and my dreams spoke to me again, and the trend seems to be that they’re getting so clear and supportive. I saw the person whom I had perceived as hurting me–naked. They looked nothing like how they looked in real life, but it was them, coming out of another argument with a third party, venting it out to me (yet not wanting to) and expecting me fix the damage because they were too incensed to do it themself (bear with my grammar while I keep the gender of this individual under wraps). Their skin was mottled by age and dark patches, hairless, the body twisted and out of proportion, stretched and warped by suppressed anger. Look,  I said, stop doing this, stop picking fights. It’s twisted you. You think you win just because you keep your volume down and that suppression makes you superior but it doesn’t. And that person hmphed and stalked off. (In real life, they do come from the school of negativity-suppression. Not for me, thanks.)

I spent the second half of the night dreaming of myself in a healing center, surrounded by friends from real life, lounging in a deck chair and listening to crystal bowls and enjoying some EO-scented air that I couldn’t actually smell while dreaming. I couldn’t have asked for better (except for my sense of smell), and woke up in a different and happier state, and able to see my old antagonist in a new perspective. I had another surprise later the same morning, trying a “tuning” experiment with an online friend, and it went beautifully. Who knew I could see a person’s colours and mental images while they were in another country? All this while card reading to ease myself into this! There were many upsides to the exercise, not least of which was clearing my space beforehand. I physically cleaned my room, lit a candle, and did some quick but long overdue meditations. The Sun really wanted to give me something–I didn’t have to journey anywhere. All I did was greet it, and a ball of cleansing fire immediately descended and made itself at home. No lie, I needed it and was grateful. (See my previous post.)

After lunch, it was to attend the opening party of a teacher-healer-friend’s shop, and more friends were met and new ones made. Some of the new faces were inexplicably familiar, even though we hadn’t met before–this has happened more lately. They’re also incredibly easy to talk to and feel like old/immediate “BFFs”. I always love these experiences, they make the whole day magic, and it seemed there was plenty to go around. This month is magic. I don’t think it’s all plain sailing, but the highs so far are incredible and I hope they get more common from now on. Many have said that this month is the time for new patterns to be set. Hence I’ve been trying to work, paint, and blog more consistently. (I’m still working on a post to sum up my experience in Glastonbury in December.)

On the big drawing board (and I am working larger nowadays), I have Vesica Pisces, and while the mer-people are swimming in the main shape, I was just “tapped” to highlight the creative potential of the two main circles, and hence hidden none-too-subtly is a hint of the infinite polygons (and wave forms) that can be generated from the vesica pisces. I suppose that will take another post to explain, but now it seems appropriate that I’m working on this this month and while these destruction-creation energies going around.

Hang on tight, we’re on the brink of the eclipses and still have half the month to go! ;)